Almost left this world

Today sale still almost same bad hai...Afternoon when busy jerry they all went in eat ice-cream.I over heard this she going back on 6 sept,ya may be I should happy for her cos she getting married soon...But I almost cry out and now still very down don know weather should met her for dinner with auntie?I almost knock down by a bike don know why I think die may be good for me don need stress also.My fren saw me today also he ask me wanna chg job?Manager post 1.9k should I change?Or should stay on?Who can help me also?I don know what to do le so tired

Almost left

Challange?

Today the sale is bad,lucky nite after 8 sale still alright...I heard another news is I have to work benten cafe iluma soon le...The sale there damm sux don't know I got the strength to pull up the sale ma?Hope so..Yesterday fen ru ask me this,You still contact senio?I say only sms her nite sms nia...I don know how to face her too ba...Another thing is wei qi birthday coming I ask my fren did she invite him?He say no but she have a great bf that is a math teacher le,so I should happy for her rite,No matter how is me the 1 who give up this relationship de....Yesterday lucky my god sis help me get present for her,and heard she still quite happy so still alright take care all my ex...Rowena amother 10 hour going back her country le good luck my fren see ya

Don't know How I feel?

Yesterday evensing so surpise finally see her after so long...When see her I don't talk too her much...To she I may be face black or don feel like see her ba...But the true reason is I don't dare see her cos when see her 1st eye my tear almost come out so I tell myself to control and don see her too much before tear out...So tired week I have also not enough staff working my OT almost 8 hr for 1st week but no OT pay sian...Hai...so tired until I don know what I should do also?Quit?Don think so ba cos a good comapany until now ba...Don quit also tired hai...This is my life?Yes so I have too accept it nia...Miss her ma?Yes I do with my true heart...I miss u silly gal

Sorry

Don't know why suddenly feeling say sorry to some of my ex and a gal special...Hai...seriously after thinking my past feel so bad to my ex...I mean the way I treat them,Break up with them cos some reason...schooling and family problem hai...Today suddenly miss her and wanted sms her but don dare hai......what I really want?I don't know hai...

Hai...

I told myself must forget her so I stop sms her or say thing about her le...But don know what the ending will like?Hai...Sale continue bad again..What happen to our sale?So bored about work and stress also hai...This 2 day I don know why feel pain again and tired hai...Hope You will stay happy forever ba all the best too I miss you still

Finally is a end

Yesterday Nite when I very tired she sms me...A message that make me sad fora whole day...She sms me tell me this I hope you can treat me as a fren cos I am going maried soon.1st in my mind is I know I should wish her all the best and hopefully her husband will take good care of her cos she is a very nice gal.I sms tom thanks for asking her tell me to give up by herself.But when to work with a down mood and black face whole day.I don know what I doing just smoke and drink now onli.I also don know why don want talk to tom?May be I want to relax myself awhile ba ..even the 3 day off not enough I think really need time to heal again ba

finally let me know the true le

2 days ago in chalet so tired after that knowing this she finally sms me...She tell me this she going married soon...I don know I should happy or sad?Happy is I know she find some 1 she love the most,sad is I don know what her future husband thinking?Why just let her work sg alone?You know ur gf working so hard in sg?Why can't come over here with her or fetch her go KL work?As for me I will try don bring in emotion to work hopefully so...

Tired le

Really feel too tired le luckily next week off...Hmm...today is Tom birthday so wish him happy birthday too:)Hmm...recently sale so bad again so sian...I really can't sleep don know Y?Cos of the job?Or cos oh her?Seriouly I really don't know can forget her ma?aI miss her still so much?I don't know anything le hope she fine onli...I hope 1 day we can met up and talk ba...when the day will come?I onli can say I believe if we avoid each others nth will settle and may be I will hurt others nia

very de sian day

Today sale damm bad don know why recently so bad hai.,,,Today heard news about her again then cut my nail again...hai...I tell myself not to think of her le end up injury and bad mood end up scold all my staff...Auntie eileen sorry for scolding you when do small matter wrong but I don know why just scold only hai...why like that sux

Off day?

To me now off day and normal day no different le...I also will went down BHG ba.Yesterday never sleep again when close eye I think the memories we ever have,so end up today morning 9plus then sleep...when awake 12pm le with a eye pain and red eye again...Sian when awake how good if can sleep all the way?So I won feel pain at all and now don need suffer on anything.I yesterday tell fen ru this I hope to see her happy onli others thing I can don care...This is what I want onli so pls let me be stubborn again ba...lucky book chalet on 13,14 july le can at least take a break ba hope to cool down also.Take care gal...

Finally

Finally Fen ru tell me the true,Senio going to enerage next month.When I head this news I break down.I cry out even when on train...I blame heaven why treat me this way?Why recently so many thing happen to me?My ex,My work,My family I going to crazy soon is this way continue.I know I should wish her all the best but I still cry out when telling fen ru I wish her all the best.To all people who concern me sorry to let you all worry but I thing I need to cool down this time.Fen ru and eileen,tom sorry for this few month worry..I promise I will try stand up again but not now just let me be with my way can?To senio I wish You and your husband all the best hope you 2 will stay lovely forever...Take good care of yourself too...Don't smoke or drink too much too espically when married too must take good care yourself and husband too my fren...Stay happily always gal...I miss you but don dare see you now too sorry scare I will cry again sorry...Sorry to be so selffish also in this way to avoid u but I know u also avoid me too so let be the same now ba miss ya

Too Much thing happen recently

Firstly 1 of the gal I love before told me this she now may be got mental problem so I feel so sad hai...2nd my ex commit sucide hai...why so silly gal go down this type of foolish thing?3rd My Bro problem make me so sian hai...4th finally I know she back but my feeling is she avoid me hai...5th today go buy medicine for my mun and lost my way hai...6th today my back and whole body ache again sian...auntie eileen ask me see doctor but I think better not ba cos I know I will award in the hospital so better not haha..Hai...May be this is my life ba sian take care all my fren see ya

Too much thing happen le

This few days too many thing happen le.My family facing some problem again.My ex yesterday commit sucide,working stress sale bad and working problem too...Why she commit sucide cos of small thing?Pls be mature don do silly thing.As for work tired le even off day yesterday rest le also no enough just feel too tired of life...Just now I confirm this news she come back sg le,I should be happy rite?At least know she safe but no my tears just drop again...I miss her again?Or I just feel too happy for her she settle her thing?I don't know at least I know my pray come true only at least she safe now only hope she will be happy nia...Take care ba my fren

Hai...

Today never sleep well again...I don know what time then fall asleep?But I just know get scolded again for not awake again hai...Don't know why chest pain again hai...I know I must take care myself before I can take care others but I really tired to care myself le...I that day saw some 1 like her but fen ru say not her,I very de believe sorry...May be you can say I think too much so thought see her but I believe myself really is her...I just want met her out for a meal and talk so hard ma?Why she want to avoid me?I don know may be she still angry or what but I just know I will just go temple when ever I walk pass to pray for her..Hope she well and stay happy ba take care always too gal miss ya

Sorry

I think need to say sorry to all those who worry about me de....Fen ru is 1 of them I know u care about me but let me be selffish 1 time can?I hope to see her and settle all thing ba...I know what is the ans but I don care the most important is to see her ba...Take care all my fren too see ya...

Back from the hell

Today is fen ru birthday so wish her happy birthday at my blog 1st.Today is damm sux day...Sale very damm bad hai...2 days le so bad hai...My mind went blank suddenly tonight.I almost met a accident and die.I really hope can die this way ba.I cross the road and I see is red light so I cross then 1st car pass by infornt me then I thought the person crazy then I find out not his fault is my fault when the 2nd car almost knock me down and horn at me.I run always from hell ba so I can write blog here.Tonight mind is blank even what I did or never did I also don know?What happen to my mind?I may be really tired of life le ba,wanna take leave soon but I know can't so just work ba until 1 day I die then say ba...I hope this day will come soon ba take care all my fren see ya

FinaLLY

Today Fall sick damm badly in the morning hai...Afternoon quite happy she finally call us...I the 1 who ans the call and she finally talk to me...Ask me how am I?I fine ma?I at first can't believe is her so I ask who are you?she told me is her I almost cry out.I ask her when she will be back?she tell me faster half month,longer 11 month.I wanted tell her this I will wait for her but I scare she angry so I keep quiet again.I really miss her so much gal...talk to her awhile then she talk to auntie...I from auntie know what I have guess all correct so My tear went down again...I also call fen ru talk to her and she scolded me...I know she care about me too but I really can't sleep....This few time always the same whenever I close my eye I see her...I really miss her very much until like siao people...Ya may be I should agree with zi wei that I like put on weight le may be drink too much le ba...I can onli say I will take care myself and wait her back...

6 May

A day I will remenber...I never sleep whole nite and cry over all nite...I just feel very tired of life le....I try and try to sleep and tell myself don't think too much but I can't cos I miss her lots...I hate my life and tired of living le...I really hope to can have a long break but I know now totally can't must wait until don't know each day hai...I think I won't sleep today le ba wait until tired le then sleep ba hai...Hope you are well gal,hope u will back sg soon and see u soon...Althought I know May be u won't want see me but I hope at least can see ur back sigh again or see u again miss ya

End of Month

Today finally is end of the month...But going busy with all the stupid paper work again hai...This mth sale finally 58 to 59k so still quite happy with it...Today read my ex blog she cry again?Why Cry?Mun oppose again ba silly gal don need cry ba...I ask fen ru how is she?she say she work in malaysia so don need worry about her...But My mind wondering this?How Is she?She coming Back SG ma?I miss her lots...Fews days ago when to see doctor cos chest pain but expected ask me go hospital for check up so I say I will go myself but I think better not or else sure kana stay hee hee sian ar even die also like that ba don care

2 week le hai....

Today is 2 weeks she went back le hai....No much news about her also...This 2 days sale damm bad hai...sian lor 1.2k nia scare next month can't do well also sian...Hmm...this 2 days condition not well again don know izzit going start asthmas again?Or I did hurt too many people le so this my Bao Yin?May be if really wanna me die let me die peacefully ba..I don't want to suffer die again...If really 1 day I die I will onli wanna say sorry to 3 people in my life sorry to hurt u all so much take care also

hai...sad day again

Today off day but went down to help.So bad sale again sian...When can we stop this bad sale? Afternoon I heard from xin yi she not coming back le,but I don't believe her so I ask fen ru again to confirm...She told me is true she cancel her permit le so mostly won't be back...Why like that?Fen ru tell me may she feel better in malaysia ba so don want come back now...I seriously miss her lots ba,so I tell myself this work hard 1st hope 1 day she back and can win her heart ba...

Sad day ba

Yesterday afternoon I just suddenly cry again...She finally went back Malaysia le,Why should I cry?She went back is a good or bad thing?I don't know...I hate her cos she went back without saying anything,why don just tell us early?so we can met up for a meal?Why she left me with a mark a memory that I will remenber her?whenever I see the mark I miss her ba..Hope this trip she back will be fine and back soon ba...

5 May

Today I met up 2 of my best fren...Wow quite awhile never see them le so happy to see them also...Today afternoon went back to BHG today my kitchen told me this they want me here more ba cos new manager here all cannot make it de hai...Yesterday more worse my side lost $60 then like my fault all thing push to me sian.Cos here not their outlet so he don care all this also sux...Then nite went see fortune teller he tell me quite true also,I also hope is true also cos I wanna a happy life ba...Thanks for who always by myside care about me de fren

20april09

Today to me is a quite sad day ba...My staff when back indonesia next week le...Haha so fast half year le sian lor...This 8 month in this company too many thing happen...I give up my relationship also see all my staff go off sian...I don't know why I miss her ba don ask me who is she thanks

Wow 1 Month plus

Wow 1 Month plus never blog le hee hee...Recently too many thing happen le make my life more sian and tired...This month just past my birthday should I be happy?I don know cos not much people remenber it...Althought I tell myself I should be happy cos at least some of them still remenber my birthday but now more and more tired ba...Even now my health more worse and worse fall sick 2 week le,Now even my health become more worse ba sick no recover and whole body ache sian hai...sux damm sux...Hope next year can have someone celebrate with me ba if I still around...Take care all my fren see ya

Malyasia

Haha today when to malaysia again:)Went in quite early so feel abit tired also hai....Today went in shop and shop and shop haha...Went in to walk in new shopping centre and eat alot of foood ba...Tom going to army le so we also will feel sian soon again too hai...We enjoy our time together playing together and shop as a buddy ba...Good Bro take care too...HahA today all people can't contact me as my phone no oversea call so lucky don need back to work too....Thanks for every 1 concern I promise I will be fine no matter what happen

happy sad day?

A happy or sad day for me?I don know????So happy to went our with my staff but still alot of complain about my outlet hai...Hai...really need to chg my guys all that le...so sian went vivo to find the southpark but too bad still can't find it....sian...Evening still great for me at least I take vegetable with them the food still ok also:)Thanks for all people who care me thanks

Hai...

Today went back to Rc work...hai sian this time is different shop haha in Bishamon...Today sale damm bad so also no mood work also...Why must we work?hai...Hmm...today asking myself?I am sure no gf this life ba,I also not a good guy so better not also ba...So sad feeling find me again but I won't say Y

Valentine day

Valentine day to me just a another normal day of work ba...seeing so many couple,I think of my pass again...I only have 1 valentine before that is 3 year ago...I will always put in my mind that day we have...I really don know what I want?I want the past or find someone else?To me I really miss her ba...Today working still still alright haha...Something to happy about is break the curse there this month 1st 2k haha...I just hope she enjoy her alentine with her bf ba,as I see she put in friendster as in relationship wish her all the best too

Fed Up Day

Today Is a damm unlucky day...Alot of thing happen sux...Today working in morning damm sick hai...Then evening time went back Great world City to help but damm sux lor thing happen unlucky over there...Almost black out there hai...then start busy again then thing happen badly again...Key wrong order when I blur...then more bad thing happen the kitchen stupid machines spoil so all order crop up hai....Damm sian and sux day I have ba

Is A Bad Thursday for me

Yesterday a tired and a bit day for me ba....Blur and busy by working ba...Suddenly so many people come in with us hard to handle well hai...Then evening start block nose le cos Bugis really is a good cold place...Hai...start sick again...But Lucky auntie elieen give me medicine eat:)After eat that medicine, I take bus totally no strengh cos the medichine is too strong ba...No strengh until almost fall down in bus also hai...I reach home fall asleep straight away and I think I hope can sleep all the way and don wake up ba...That mean hope like that all the way sleep until no die ba haha

Fine working day in bugis

Haha today start work at bugis 1 week le...hmm...still fine over there but the sale still consider bad ba...At bugis all people is nice and crap haha...Talk to my ex but we decide be fren better ba...I think I really can't forget her also ba...Although people say should forget pass but I really don know what to do ba,as my future I also don dare think too much also hai...

Off day

TodAy is my off day of the week...A bored day again in the afternoon.then evening went out with me ex staff:)Still quite enjoy the timing that we met cos quite awhile that we never met also le...Thanks for every 1 concern,to me I just don know what I really want???Just now this I really regret in what I did in the past ba...I really think of her evn now ba...Just take good care ba miss her?Yes I do always I do...Hope she know who I mean and not others get the wrong meaning

A Damm and sux day ever have

Today is a very bad day for me,I don know izzit I bad luck?Or too bad have a super stupid,crying baby OM...For nth kana scolded for the day so make day more worse...I don know izzit quarrel with bf or what?But I sure know she is a damm sux OM I ever have...She just like to cry nia...Damm it stupid OM...

sian day?

Until today my mood still not change ba..Today read my ex blog know she got baby le:)Happy for her?Yes I am happy for her but a bad thing to hear is she want to abort baby...Why do people want to do all this type of foolish thing?Baby is a life also,if that guy not bad why don consider him?I with her is past le,so pls don think too much of me le...As for me I only want wish her all the best:)Take care my fren...Me now onli want to relax my life with no much thinking ba...I don wan stress so much le...I very very tired also le...Nite all of them take care

Thinking of my past again

Today suddenly my staff asking about Rom...I over heard that...Hmm...To me I think of my past ba,so the mood went down bad again...I think of the 2 relationship that almost married de so the mood went down alot...If You ask me,whether I still miss them?If I say no mean I lie you all...I miss her lots...Who say guy can't cry?I now typing with my tear now also I miss her ba...I don't know when will find true love again?I don't know I dare to take relationship again,cos scare hurt people again...I just hope she fine ba see ya

Working tired day

Hmm...Don't know why suddenly feel write blog again:)Today working still the same stress and lots of thing to do hai...Hmm...Today suddenly feel so hungry lor eat alot haha more and more fatter le:)Afternoon still quite busy,but at nite hai...so quiet.Tonight still quite happy cos Hai ge give me red packet haha...Quite surpise also but must thanks him also...Take care all my fren nite sweet dream...To her I don know what should I say?Just take good care ba....My disappear just hope u fine...don think too much also take care

Happy New year

Haha Happy New Year to all of us...To mE I more and More tired of new year le...I hate to celebrate new year:( Nth much to do and sian lor...All the question always the same,where ur gf?When get married?I hear until more and more sian...I just feel tired of all this le,I also decide try save more money ba:)Hope my princess will out to save money with me:)To built a nice future too

After thinking

Haha Long time no blog le...Hmm...quite awhile working at bihamon still quite ok ba...This few days start back to jp benten cafe support but this time more sian ba...As for me nth for relationship...Just like last time regret again,I also cry out again ba...Just feel want to disapper in this world can?I very tired le