Off day?

To me now off day and normal day no different le...I also will went down BHG ba.Yesterday never sleep again when close eye I think the memories we ever have,so end up today morning 9plus then sleep...when awake 12pm le with a eye pain and red eye again...Sian when awake how good if can sleep all the way?So I won feel pain at all and now don need suffer on anything.I yesterday tell fen ru this I hope to see her happy onli others thing I can don care...This is what I want onli so pls let me be stubborn again ba...lucky book chalet on 13,14 july le can at least take a break ba hope to cool down also.Take care gal...

Finally

Finally Fen ru tell me the true,Senio going to enerage next month.When I head this news I break down.I cry out even when on train...I blame heaven why treat me this way?Why recently so many thing happen to me?My ex,My work,My family I going to crazy soon is this way continue.I know I should wish her all the best but I still cry out when telling fen ru I wish her all the best.To all people who concern me sorry to let you all worry but I thing I need to cool down this time.Fen ru and eileen,tom sorry for this few month worry..I promise I will try stand up again but not now just let me be with my way can?To senio I wish You and your husband all the best hope you 2 will stay lovely forever...Take good care of yourself too...Don't smoke or drink too much too espically when married too must take good care yourself and husband too my fren...Stay happily always gal...I miss you but don dare see you now too sorry scare I will cry again sorry...Sorry to be so selffish also in this way to avoid u but I know u also avoid me too so let be the same now ba miss ya

Too Much thing happen recently

Firstly 1 of the gal I love before told me this she now may be got mental problem so I feel so sad hai...2nd my ex commit sucide hai...why so silly gal go down this type of foolish thing?3rd My Bro problem make me so sian hai...4th finally I know she back but my feeling is she avoid me hai...5th today go buy medicine for my mun and lost my way hai...6th today my back and whole body ache again sian...auntie eileen ask me see doctor but I think better not ba cos I know I will award in the hospital so better not haha..Hai...May be this is my life ba sian take care all my fren see ya

Too much thing happen le

This few days too many thing happen le.My family facing some problem again.My ex yesterday commit sucide,working stress sale bad and working problem too...Why she commit sucide cos of small thing?Pls be mature don do silly thing.As for work tired le even off day yesterday rest le also no enough just feel too tired of life...Just now I confirm this news she come back sg le,I should be happy rite?At least know she safe but no my tears just drop again...I miss her again?Or I just feel too happy for her she settle her thing?I don't know at least I know my pray come true only at least she safe now only hope she will be happy nia...Take care ba my fren

Hai...

Today never sleep well again...I don know what time then fall asleep?But I just know get scolded again for not awake again hai...Don't know why chest pain again hai...I know I must take care myself before I can take care others but I really tired to care myself le...I that day saw some 1 like her but fen ru say not her,I very de believe sorry...May be you can say I think too much so thought see her but I believe myself really is her...I just want met her out for a meal and talk so hard ma?Why she want to avoid me?I don know may be she still angry or what but I just know I will just go temple when ever I walk pass to pray for her..Hope she well and stay happy ba take care always too gal miss ya

Sorry

I think need to say sorry to all those who worry about me de....Fen ru is 1 of them I know u care about me but let me be selffish 1 time can?I hope to see her and settle all thing ba...I know what is the ans but I don care the most important is to see her ba...Take care all my fren too see ya...

Back from the hell

Today is fen ru birthday so wish her happy birthday at my blog 1st.Today is damm sux day...Sale very damm bad hai...2 days le so bad hai...My mind went blank suddenly tonight.I almost met a accident and die.I really hope can die this way ba.I cross the road and I see is red light so I cross then 1st car pass by infornt me then I thought the person crazy then I find out not his fault is my fault when the 2nd car almost knock me down and horn at me.I run always from hell ba so I can write blog here.Tonight mind is blank even what I did or never did I also don know?What happen to my mind?I may be really tired of life le ba,wanna take leave soon but I know can't so just work ba until 1 day I die then say ba...I hope this day will come soon ba take care all my fren see ya

FinaLLY

Today Fall sick damm badly in the morning hai...Afternoon quite happy she finally call us...I the 1 who ans the call and she finally talk to me...Ask me how am I?I fine ma?I at first can't believe is her so I ask who are you?she told me is her I almost cry out.I ask her when she will be back?she tell me faster half month,longer 11 month.I wanted tell her this I will wait for her but I scare she angry so I keep quiet again.I really miss her so much gal...talk to her awhile then she talk to auntie...I from auntie know what I have guess all correct so My tear went down again...I also call fen ru talk to her and she scolded me...I know she care about me too but I really can't sleep....This few time always the same whenever I close my eye I see her...I really miss her very much until like siao people...Ya may be I should agree with zi wei that I like put on weight le may be drink too much le ba...I can onli say I will take care myself and wait her back...

6 May

A day I will remenber...I never sleep whole nite and cry over all nite...I just feel very tired of life le....I try and try to sleep and tell myself don't think too much but I can't cos I miss her lots...I hate my life and tired of living le...I really hope to can have a long break but I know now totally can't must wait until don't know each day hai...I think I won't sleep today le ba wait until tired le then sleep ba hai...Hope you are well gal,hope u will back sg soon and see u soon...Althought I know May be u won't want see me but I hope at least can see ur back sigh again or see u again miss ya